It has been a challenging week. I have been working really hard to accomplish so much and there does not seem to be enough time for it all but I am trying. Work was all consuming this past week and I even had to go in on Saturday to make life easier on Monday.
In the midst of all of this I also had my 6 month oncologist visit. I am in remission and my blood tests came out great! I have a CT Scan in a week but it is just to make sure that a pain I am having is not cancer. My doctor and nurse said I was looking great. That made my day. I have lost 3 pounds so yay for me!
Even so, this week has been one that made me think deeply about my life. The nurse asked me how I was feeling. I think it was because I probably looked a little somber. I love my oncologist and his staff but it is a reminder of the other people who used to visit there that have passed away. Four people on my same chemo schedule have passed away since I finished chemo. They were all beautiful people and I think of them. I know they would give anything to have had extra time with their loved ones. Time I have been given. I am hard on myself sometimes because I feel I waste some of that time. I play some games to help my brain stop thinking about work and other worries. I have to have FAITH. It is so important to concentrate on that which I can change and have faith that the rest will work it's self out. It does not mean I won't someday possibly get cancer again but it won't help worrying about it or thinking about it.

So I have decide to have FAITH live there. It will take belief, prayer, hope, a joyful heart and continued move towards a positive life. It won't happen over night. Nothing in life worth having is easy to attain and it is even harder to keep. It will take work. I have to work at this with the zest I show in my job. My life is more important than work and so much more worth it.